What A Momma!!

I've cracked the door of understanding open today and peeked into the lives of countless women who completed a survey of their mother. I'm reading so many different lifestyles of motherhood and how this one taught their children about Jesus and that mother was a complete and total hypocrite (as they put it). Wow!! With all that going through my mind, I am wondering: What would my children have to say about me? I am purely blessed to report a childhood filled with wonderful memories of my mother teaching us, loving us and being everything we could possibly want in a "Momma". I am constantly bombarded with the detestable creature called "Comparison". I daily compare myself with the way my mom was with us and, to be honest, I can't possibly measure up!! I never once remember my mom raising her voice in anger at the three of us children. I can't ever remember mom constantly lecturing me or berating me for something I did wrong. Yet, I am guilty. In fact, I've decided that if I haven't had good rest in a few days it's better for me to zip my lips and quickly find a prayer closet :)

I visualize myself as a quiet, gentle and longsuffering lady that my children tenderly call "Mother". I imagine that I would love to wake my kids up at 5:30 every day for morning devotion as we gather around the livingroom and then after breakfast everyone joyfully engages in their chores and schoolwork. I dream of being a discreet woman of wisdom that her children turn to for safety.

Back to the real world, I am realizing this more and more: It takes the GRACE and MERCY of the Lord to make me the kind of Momma I so long to be!

I've found the Biblical model is Proverbs 31. I pray that I will be her. I want my children to rise up and call me blessed. I'm not seeking for a Hollywood body or the wealth of Donald Trump. I don't desire a career that would put me on the cover of a magazine. My heartbeat is to imitate the Lord and that my four beautiful blessings along with my precious husband would see Him in me.....every day. That's it. Nothing else. Because when they see Him, so will everyone else!